Thursday, April 19, 2012

Jason's Hymnal


Popping the headphones in, I raised my eyebrows in expectation- a cue to start his three-minute song. Looking more at the computer than myself, he clicked once and the music crept into audibility.

Immediately, I reckoned the metallic vibrations to that of a lonely echo clinging to the walls of a concrete tunnel- and I closed my eyes to match its entrancing darkness. It was rhythmic, it was beautiful. It was the tribal hymn of rain, somehow translated to an acoustic guitar.

Then, the melody began to speak. The cadence, the pauses, the expression mirrored his voice, and the song was having a conversation. Feeling more like reading his journal than listening to a song he'd constructed, I wrapped my fingers around his arm as if to say, "I hear you."

Towards the end, there was deconstruction. High octave notes rang out, a frantic goodbye, screamed by the song itself.

Of course, I can only now describe it. And I feel stupid, because I just sat there, commenting here and there, chuckling thoughtfully, and saying "This is so pretty!". If only he knew that every night from now on it will sing me to sleep.

Sunday, April 15, 2012

I'm the beholder of happiness- when my boyfriend is with me.


We walked the through cold wind last night

until he begged me to go home-

but I just smiled and replied,

“There’s a place I had in mind”

and we kept walking.

We walked the through cold wind last night

until we came to a lilac bush-

and I made him stop to smell them,

their sweetness seemed thousands of years old, like a dusty perfume,

and he was happy we stopped, but we kept walking.

We walked the through cold wind last night

until it started to drizzle-

I worried we’d have to go back,

but as the moisture left dew on our faces and hair,

he was content and so was I; we kept walking.

We walked the through cold wind last night

until I we reached a stream and a bridge

and I told him “We’re here.”

I jumped on the rail and we shared warm kisses in the cold

he picked me up and smiled, and we kept walking.

We walked the through cold wind last night

until we reached home again

and he told me “We’re here.”

We joined on the front porch swing

and I watched him watch the rain fall,

and I was the beholder of happiness.


Saturday, April 14, 2012

bright day

positivity is something that I cannot lack

on such a beautiful,

courageous,

promising day.

given the chance, I would not go back

to the feelings,

anxiety,

and fear of yesterday.